Thursday, December 6, 2007

to my cousin

so my cousin rings me. this is what she basically says, in like literally one minute, just dribbles all this shit out. nut case.
Cuuuuuuuuuuzzz.... good news i didn't tell you over the phone but I AM NEVER TOUCHING A REEFER AGAIN. i had this huge revolution while i was on the toilet and flushed my stash down the toilet. i mean what was i thinking i don't need that shit i am fuckin hyped enough as it is. as for you lil missy what is this with you and eddie aye hahaha.. well dude i have nothing to say (after all i am the one who cheated on my boyfriend here) but i just stick to my good ol saying that everything happens for a reason. and you did nothing wrong youare just enjoying your youth while you still can. well good luck for your license i get mine a day before yours i think that is pretty cool don't you? i guess i said everything to you over my stupid alien transmitting phone hahaha!! dude you sounded so funny when you just woke up hahaha man you crack me up. soo my fren that news you told me about christina is pretty out there (hahaha... you thought you were the only one who knew , well i guess she didn't expect me to remember the whole bi thing considering the state i was in) . i can not wait to talk again!! and it sux i won't see you in bris but we'll talk for sure!!

punching people

HARDCORE. i always punch people (mostly guys) when im pissed.. its a bit of fun.. i think its funny that you called her ugly.. bah.. good work.. that guy is a fucking bastard for using chantay.. fuck him.. go beat the shit out of him stacy.. i would.. if i had a sis.. or even for your sis i would.. no one deserves that (im such a FUCKING hypocrite.. slap me nowwwww) "some people are so dumb." fuck yes.. dont get me started. i miss hervey bay.. i really do.. i hate this place.. im bored and lonely. im trying to lose weight again.. i fucking suck i really do.. my knee is sca-rewed (i think ive said that) but it really really is. anyway.. nothing much to report on.. oh wait.. im going to be a learn to swim teacher for little kiddies.. so bring your babies to me and i will make them star swimmers (if they want to be hah) or i can just teach them to swim like normal people :)

yeah i dont know about coco’s anymore.. its so goddamn easy and im only working 2 shifts a week and it suits me.. so im staying with it.. the only shitty thing is working on sunday mornings at 8.30 with a hangover.. aside from that.. its fine and they have these new weight watcher muffins and they are GREAT!!! so once i lose some goddamn weight ill quit coco’s and become a stripper.. lol.. done and done. oh i'm going to hervey bay! for a holiday. i'll be looking good and going on holiday! last time i was there, they screwed up my accomodation and i ended up going to Peppers Pier Resort which was really nice.

i dont know what the hell to do with mitch.. i seriously.. fuck me stacy.. wtf do i do.. hes refers to me as his best friend..but he says stuff like ' you look pretty today' and 'damn you have a nice ass' etc etc and i guess is playful and flirty and that.. its typical i-like-you-more-than-a-friend behaviour.. but yeah maybe it isnt.. anyway today i went over to his to watch a movie and do the garden and we were just chilling and stuff.. and i was being really good (i dont have the confidence to flirt like mad anyway) and we were making his bed and that and somehow... (i bet you're thinking 'here we go...') we ended up kissing and grinding and im like oh shitt damnit i hate myself.. the thing is stacy.. im starting to like him all over again... (are you thinking "HOW?" .. yeah, so am i.. but i do and its something i wouldnt just say if i hadnt really thought about what it meant..) and so im thinking this is not good.. its unhealthy its self destructive etc.. so heres what im going to do.. im going to write a letter (mostly because i cant say it to his face and i want to get the words right .. we used to write each other letters all the time anyway) saying we're either best friends/ friends or we're together.. none of this in between crap. and if he doesnt want either than we should really part ways and get to know other people.of course it wont be as blunt as that but yeah.. hopefully he'll get the fricking point because im tired of hating myself everytime i drive home from his place. the sex part is the saddest.. i really dont get that much out of it aside from the fact that he still wants me.. even if its only physically.. man that sentence is really depressing.. fuck im pathetic.


dont worry about driving - its a pain in the ass anyway.. but i would bribe the authorities just to see if it worked hey.. ive been talking to mikayla she seems to have turned into a bit of a party girl.. no? it seems like it - best friends with everyone - not that theres anything wrong with that - i want to be a party girl lol. havent seen or heard from nina.. no biggie.. hah dont feel bad for saying shit about nina.. so friday night hey.. are you going out.. please say yes.... pleaseee just dont go too hard out. and where did you say christina lives.. cos i live in sandgate so if shes nearby i could come over (if that doesnt piss anyone off) or we could do something or whatever.. or maybe you and christina just want to hang out and thats totally fine.. im getting too excited here..